Am I scared?

Moving out of home at age of 28 when everyone is looking to settle, am I risking it all? ‌‌Leaving my family behind when my parents are touching their 60s, is worth it? ‌‌Will this take me to the place which I was always looking for? ‌‌Even Europe, not even Canada is going to welcome me? Left my law practice and took this leap of faith just to be the first one from my family to fly overseas and pursue a master in Laws, again is this all worth it?  

Questions like these are common for me now, they are a part of my daily routine and findings answers to them is a mundane task, to be very honest I think I'm not looking for the answers anymore. Taking one step at a time is my new way of living and believing in the power of now. Anxiety often takes me over while thinking about the future but then I have to calm myself down by looking at the positive outlook of the future, I'm changing my thinking perspective looking at the other side. I have come so far in life, this is what I always wanted and always dreamed of, statements like these help me to calm down my nerves and to concentrate on the present.

Having spent 28 years of my life with my parents never did anything by myself but always had the urge to change the dynamics of my life with my own hands but this is daunting and interesting at the same time. I guess being scared is common with all of us it is just that we tend to hide it in different ways. Never did the daily chores by myself, the way of teaching overseas is way different as compared to India, people are friendly but again there is something which is not complete that sense of relief is still missing and I think it will take more time than I imagined.

My friend who is in Canada right now for four and a half years told me that, you will be homesick and it is fine. His words calmed me down and I know this calmness is for a few days, soon I have to call him up again to discuss life and take a new dose of his wise words.

In the end, the question remains the same AM I SCARED?